Before Goodbye

Before I let you go, is it okay to ask one last time?
did you ever love me or was your love only a lie?
how could you easily forget? why can't you remember?
all the days and nights we shared, do they even matter?

I tried to forget you and yet each time I tried, I failed
I wondered how you do it, how could you easily forget
I am thousands of miles away and yet our memories haunt me
Can you tell me your secret so I too, could forget?

Before I tell you goodbye, is it alright to ask?
what part of me did you really love?
it was always so easy for you to let me go
you always accomplished to make me feel so low.

Is it alright to ask for your forgiveness?
I'm sorry for choosing to let you go instead of holding on
I'm sorry for your pain when I chose to break your heart
I couldn't blame you if your love for me were all gone.

Before I walk away completely, I need an honest answer
what comes to your mind when you think of me?
Are your memories of us as fond as I could remember
Or were they too disgusting for you to even bother?

I was the one who left, I was the one who hurt you
yet why do I feel like I was the one who lost my way?
I was the one who took so many steps away from you
so why do I feel like I couldn't really find the right way?

Before I say goodbye, I wanted to thank you
for all the memories albeit some of them make me cry
I can't take away the sadness from all our happy years
for only in times of sorrow we can be grateful for the happy days. 

I will still write for you in the wee hours of the morning
Or when the clouds shroud the moonlight on an evening so cold
In those moments of nothingness, I will let my heart form a dream
Only when the world is quiet will thoughts of you unfold.